I'm more than frustrated right now...I'm downright angry.
I know we are supposed to 'take captive those thoughts'...but seriously, how do you keep taking captive those thoughts when they keep slapping you in the face. I, for most of my life, have laid down and taken it when a bully was bullying. It really did not get me anywhere. Now, I am trying to deal with it by: 1) Either confronting the bully and hoping to help them see where behavior is wrong, and yes, I check myself to see whether I am overreacting...or 2) Get downright mad and VENT! Much like I am doing right now....
I happened to have something happen recently and it was so unexpected from the person it came from which really hurts when that happens. I wonder, just how they justify the behavior especially as "We are Christians." I am seriously considering joining the camp that says "I am a believer, but don't put me in the group that wants to call themselves Christian because I don't want to be anything like them." Do you know what I mean? To make it worse, and granted this person had no idea, nor do they ever bother to check what is going on in my life. But we had just had another very wonderful family event happen, NOT!!! - that caused more pain and trauma so for them to do what they did caused even more pain and with two recent deaths in the family, well.....more pain and trauma. Okay, Lord Jesus, when is enough, enough?
I mean, it's not just happening to me, it is happening to my children too which, you know as a parent, makes you really vunerable to rip someone's head off. Mess with my child one more time.... ya know what I mean? So here I am trying to walk in grace and mercy and really I 'feel' like pulling out the bazooka and saying, "Come on, Baby, make my day!" AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!
And still here I sit, wondering, pondering, and now understanding even more why Jesus was sitting with the heathen as opposed to sitting with the religious leaders of his day. I wonder when, just when His people will take the masks off, quit playing the games and get down and dirty with people like me to try and help each other, to do His will which is love one another.
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I can relate. I just was screaming at the Lord about some things. As for 'Christians', you can keep most of those fake pew-warmers. I'm a 1611 King James Bible believing follower of Christ and don't find much comfort in today's apostasy. I know He is big enough to take my punches, just hope He doesn't punch back. Seems like no matter how hard I try I am still 'O ye of little faith'. Guess this is His way of goading me onward to greater faith and trust but wow, enough's enough. I know how you feel, blogger.
I think we need to remember who the bully REALLY is....the devil. We lose sight of this and go haywire.
Thank Christ for His pulling us back on track. Can't wait for the rapture.
Had to laugh when I saw that you like the original Pink Panther movies. One scene stays in my mind forever. Clouseau is on the stand, accused of stealing the gemstone (which had been planted by the femme fatale in his jacket hanky pocket). As he is proclaiming his innocence, he goes for thehankly and out plops the gemstone. Peter Seller's facial expression of surprise was completely priceless. When I first saw this movie, I rolled on the floor laughing, literally.
'Laughter maketh the heart merry'...Proverbs
PS...IMHO Dolly Parton stole the show in Magnolias.
Just remember, no matter what the circumstances appear to be, Our Blessed Lord is good, ALL the time.
Wow, just when I felt all alone in the universe aside from knowing that Jesus is always there, I find these comments. Thank you Annonymous, you'll never know how much I needed your encouragement at this time to keep on keeping on.
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