Well...So Much For...

...trying to stay positive.  It seems the only thing I can think of to do when I'm frustrated is blog.  I was sitting here waiting on Mr. Moor...and I heard the phrase over the TV, "The TV news programs really are not the place to get your news from if you want the truth."  ???  REALLY?  I knew this, but really, there are people who totally believe everything that is said to them over the airwaves, internet, the dying newspaper industry...When did this happen though?  Journalists were supposed to convey the news in a manner that was trustworthy and reliable for the truth. 

Now, this phrase was made by a narrator on a documentary about the safety of nuclear power plants.  I really do not know whether or not they are dangerous; whether you can grow food next to them and it is okay to eat.  I have to admit at this point I do not think I quite believe that and would like somebody for once to stand up and speak truth. 

This goes for other areas life too - like in the medical community. 

Does truth matter?  Are ethics taken for granted and assumed because whatever particular community is respected and acknowledged as having intelligence because of higher education, but are they anymore honest than "Joe Blow, the blue collar worker", down the street.  In the past maybe, anymore...I just don't know? 

You work for...

Hmmm, I thought it was just us.  I'm finding out, it's going on all over the country.  Employers undercutting their long-time, faithful employees for the bottom line, MONEY!  SHAME ON YOU! 

All you managers and HR people had better pay heed...when they get rid of the lower echelon, they will come after you next.  You are not safe.  You will one day sit where we and these other people are sitting.  Remember Nazi Germany...If you don't stand up to wrong now, there will be no one to stand up for you when they come for you.   History does repeat itself.

Goliath won....

Or did he?  My husband lost his job March 9th.  Talk about a real wake up call.  Hoo boy...

So there has been a lot of growing  in the Moors household.  And really, learning to go back to what I knew...Really?  Really!  How could I have deviated so far?  What led me to such anger and then back to grace and mercy.  Do we really have to go through this?  Well, it's all in the perspective.  If you are far from Jesus that's a very bad place to be.   So is it worth it?  Yes!  Because if you are far from God, you have nothing.  You might think you have it all, but in reality, you have nothing. 

Sneaky snakes - I thought it was a bullying issue.  Turns out - It might be an age discrimination issue; or maybe, it's just a bad economy.  But one thing I do know...

I know that I have committed myself to Jesus and that he is able to keep me.  PERIOD! 

So here we are looking for employment...hubby and me.  But one thing I know, My God is able to supply all of our needs.  We are expecting great things.  We would also like your prayers.  And if you happen to own a business, please consider hiring an older person for the position. 



Destined For Greatness, part two...

Oh right, that's supposed to be God's place....

I had an epiphany or at least, it's my idea of an epiphany.  I had been contemplating my life.  Reflecting on my relationship with the Lord.  I have been so angry with him.  Lot of stuff, not really his fault but stuff I felt he should be helping me with and I wasn't feeling the love.  You know how that goes....

Anyhow, I was looking to the past and reflecting while working on another writing project.  I realized in an instance I had not grown.  I was thinking on the story of Lot and his wife.  How Lot's wife had looked back and they were warned not to look back.  The consequence of her action was to be turned into a pillar of salt.  I was looking back.  While not turning into a pillar of salt, looking back still had consequences that were not necessarily producing good results, especially to be growing in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.

In that instance I realized I had not grown for two years.  I thought surely I have grown Lord.  I have come through this ________, and this ________, and ....Thinking these were all major things to have come through, surely I have grown.  The Lord showed me a small flower that just barely had sprouted through the ground.  I thought to myself, "Self, I haven't grown at all!  I have a lot more growing to do."  In some ways it was disappointing.  I am by no means 'young in the Lord', but I might as well have been.  Then I felt the Lord telling me that by focusing on the past, the hurts, the regrets, the what might have beens, etc.; all of that was hindering the growth of this flower that he so wanted to grow, nourish and have bloom into a beautiful flower.  I had not been turned into a pillar of salt, but I might as well have been. 

By focusing on the past, all of the issues were causing a hindrence, stifling, bondage, doubt; all were things that caused a slowing down or complete stopping of growing in the Lord.  So I am purposing in my heart to move on.  Looking to the future.  I can't change the past, but I can actively pursue the future with faith.  Faith that the Lord hasn't forgotten me.  He is still leading me.  He is the author and the finisher of our faith, my faith.   

Destined For Greatness!

Have you ever felt or yearned for something, just knew that somehow, some way you were supposed to do this thing, whatever that yearning may be...and totally in the wrong place, wrong time - things never come together right.  That is how I feel in my life right now.  If only...

If only I had more money.  If only my house were bigger.  If only...Lord, how can you use me if these things are never in my life.  And it is not really discontent.  It is more of others would be uncomfortable stacked like sardines in my little house.  Others would really not be ministered too.  It seems to be an endless battle.  It is frustrating.  I have to admit I am frustrated by these things, small as they might be. 

I have been around people who have the ability to do these things and they do not have the skills.  They have the money, but they don't have the time.  They have the house big enough to stack quite a few sardines, but not the other connections.  It really is frustrating to me.  God, why did you put me here if only to leave me just sitting here unable to do this thing? 

The Hypocrisy Never Ceases to Amaze Me!

After my rant the other day, I received an email from a certain blog writer or writers.  It went something along the lines of  'words are terrible things'.  They were right.  Words can have an impact that sometimes we are not aware of the damage we might have caused by speaking carelessly.  However, that is not an excuse to not address issues of un-Christ-like behavior.  I am well aware that my blog comes across as antagonistic.  But let me tell YOU, Christian, that for every five Christians I meet, I come across the one Believer who wants nothing more to do with Christians.  It seems God has placed my husband and I in the care of these who have joined the ranks of outcasts because they want nothing more to do with wearing masks, playing the game and acting as if life is all happy and grand.  So we do our best to lead them back to Jesus Christ and share with them His message of peace, mercy and grace, and not the laws and spiritual death of religion. 

Again, when are we going to take off the masks and get real.  I would love to have fellowship with believers who can take the heat.  But the moment I began to mention some things, they disappear. 

But really I am getting off the point of why I came to blog today.  I really do not remember signing up for the newsletter of that particular blog of writers.  But they had an interesting post, so instead of marking it as spam, I have read some of the posts.  So I went back today, because I had posted a comment thanking them for the encouragement.  Their article was a good reminder of the damage words can cause.  What did I find?  I find that my comment was deleted.  Okay, that's their right...it's their blog.  But again, I find it somewhat hypocritical.  What's a matter?  You afraid the black sheep of the family might get black fleece on your white fleece?  I don't believe God is going to allow segregation in heaven. 

So I'll stay in my own little corner of the universe with my Bible and the TRUTH I read from it and not play games by being all nice.  If I have to walk alone until Jesus takes me home, I'll do it,  because HE is worth it.  You can have your nicities, masks and all the games Christians play because they are not worth it. 

As you know, I blog when I'm frustrated....sm

I'm more than frustrated right now...I'm downright angry. 

I know we are supposed to 'take captive those thoughts'...but seriously, how do you keep taking captive those thoughts when they keep slapping you in the face.  I, for most of my life, have laid down and taken it when a bully was bullying.  It really did not get me anywhere.  Now, I am trying to deal with it by:  1)  Either confronting the bully and hoping to help them see where behavior is wrong, and yes, I check myself to see whether I am overreacting...or 2)  Get downright mad and VENT!  Much like I am doing right now....

I happened to have something happen recently and it was so unexpected from the person it came from which really hurts when that happens.  I wonder, just how they justify the behavior especially as "We are Christians."  I am seriously considering joining the camp that says "I am a believer, but don't put me in the group that wants to call themselves Christian because I don't want to be anything like them."  Do you know what I mean?  To make it worse, and granted this person had no idea, nor do they ever bother to check what is going on in my life.  But we had just had another very wonderful family event happen, NOT!!! - that caused more pain and trauma so for them to do what they did caused even more pain and with two recent deaths in the family, well.....more pain and trauma.  Okay, Lord Jesus, when is enough, enough? 

I mean, it's not just happening to me, it is happening to my children too which, you know as a parent, makes you really vunerable to rip someone's head off.  Mess with my child one more time.... ya know what I mean?  So here I am trying to walk in grace and mercy and really I 'feel' like pulling out the bazooka and saying, "Come on, Baby, make my day!"  AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!

And still here I sit,   wondering,   pondering,   and now understanding even more why Jesus was sitting  with the heathen as opposed to sitting with the religious leaders of his day.  I wonder when, just when His people will take the masks off, quit playing the games and get down and dirty with people like me to try and help each other, to do His will which is love one another. 

Reprisal, 2011 Was Supposed To Be A Better Year...

Sorry, but for me, 2011 has gone down the tubes.  I really didn't think life could get much worse.  I have been trying to NOT  focus on negatives and instead, retrain myself to think on positive things.  So the postive thing here, my mother is not suffering anymore.  She was a believer, so I know she is with Jesus.  However, I miss her greatly.  Also, if she just has to go, can't I have one more chance to ask her why she did what she did and just what did she mean by that... No, I know.  I do not get to ask those questions until my time on earth is done. 

So while I'm getting on with life, I have to say all in all, 2011, is going to go down in my history books as the worst wine ever year.  Good thing I'm not a wine maker or I'd burn all the barrels.  :0

Ever Have One of Those AHA Moments??? Part one

Today, I had one of those moments.  AHA! One of those moments that makes you wonder why did you ever doubt yourself or God.  Do you know what I mean? 

satan is the father of all lies.  I am so mad right now.  Once again, I was tricked by the master deceiver.  He is so good at getting us to doubt ourselves or God and then we find out, he lied.  Why did I believe a liar over truth?  I know truth.  Why do I do this?  ARRRGGGHHH!!!!!

So that brings me to my blogpost today.   I usually post when I am upset despite my advice to myself not to, because when I am upset, I ramble.  Sorry.  I don't mean to ramble. 

This is what I feel...I don't know if I am 'hearing' from God but this is what I see and hear....Trouble is coming and it's coming fast.  If you're  not ready, you are going to be overwhelmed by it.  Don't lose faith.  Hold on to God, it's gonna get bumpy.  Do not look at the bumps in your life, look to Jesus.  I see now what the Lord has been doing in mine and my husband's lives.  I see what God has been doing in my childrens' lives, why we have gone through some of the hard things we have gone through....God is looking for those who see the storm and do not run.  They stand and the wind blows through their hair.  They hear the tornado sirens going off and they do not flinch.  They stand tall.  They take hold of those who are faltering and say, "This is the way."  They do not care what others think.  They know what they hear God saying and they do not sway from it.  Lord, help me to be so strong, bold and as unflinching in my life. 

Get ready.  The Lord is sending judgement to America.  Read your Bible, see what it says.  Don't take what man says the Bible says.  Let me clue you in on something.  If God is having to use me to warn you, you are in serious trouble....

2011, It was supposed to be a better year.....

So we said 'Goodbye' to 2010 and Hello to 2011...joyfully, we watched for the calendar date to roll over.  It was to be a better year.  It was going to be different. We were not going back.  I'm trying to hang on...

2011 has started off with a bang for me.  My internet was down for two days, and then I got Shingles.  The dreaded disease...painful disease.  I developed a lump.  I thought, hmmmm, a boil.  I watched and waited.  Disinfected, sanitized and washed again and then again, one more time, for good measure.  It progressed.  Another bump, then another...other symptoms - dizzy, nauseated, very sore and stiff in the joints upon waking, all over aches and pains like the worst case of the flu you have ever had in your life.  AAAGGGHHHHHH!!!!

I went to the doc.  She helped, gave antibiotics, prescribed a different means of handling the issue as she is a naturopath.  And the family, 'Why don't you go to a real doctor?'  Did I mention I really dislike conflict?  But I know they love me and are concerned.  It didn't help that this condition came up in an unusual spot that just sometimes happens that way.  Hoo Boy...So, I am finally starting to feel like - "Okay Honey, you don't have to call the undertaker yet..."  I can't say I'm back to 100%, but I can tell I am feeling better.  Well actually, I wake up not feeling like an elephant slept on top of me all night.   We're making progress. 

So back to looking at 2011, looking for a promise of restoration.  God is so good.  We (I) are/am so grateful.  He has been so good to us.  He has answered and given sources to us that are encouraging and have given us hope.  He has given us friends who are truly friends.  No contingencies, no strings attached.  You know what I mean.... As a parent, I feel I have a grip now on what is happening with our children and life is going to get better without it having to be WWIII.  God is still providing.  The bullies are not defeating us.  In fact, the intimidation tactics tend to bring a different response out in us today.  God continues to teach us. 

I am really, really trying to learn not to let stress and people intimidate me.  I can't change how they behave.  I can only work on myself.  I am still hoping for a better year. 

Truth, Flitting, Evasive, What is Truth?

The harder I search for truth, the more confusing it becomes.  I really don't get the attitude of 'we can't tell the truth, we must appear this way or that."  It is very frustrating for me.  I anguish over it at times.  I also am blatently honest.  I guess that is why is hurts so when I find one is being less than honest with me.  As Christians, I know we fail.  I know we make mistakes.  I know we all sin.  If we are honest, we will admit it.  More and more I find people who try to make things appear as they were one way and it's really not that way.  It really hurts and in every case it has been someone who claims to be a "Christian".  Hmmmm, their definition of the term liar and my definition must be two different things.  Their Bible must say something that my Bible doesn't say.  I really, really do not go around trying to be something different in real life than I am on the internet.  I really try to live how I would like to be treated.  You know, the golden rule, "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." 

My husband has told me repeatedly, people will lie to you.  I'm like, why would they?  I don't lie when I get on the internet.  But yet again, they lie.  They deceive, they cover it up and make it appear as one thing when it is really something else, and that to me, my dear friend, is a lie.  Why?  Why do people do this?  And why does it most often come from someone who has a Bible in one hand and are quite loud and vocal about how they are a Christian, and yet, hmmm, let's examine that behavior. 

I think I am learning to let it go.  I have a friend who says why waste your time on it.  Because relationships matter.  People matter.  It's wrong.  To raise up your children and try to set an example for them only to see someone hurt them, it makes me mad.  Forgiveness?  Yes, I am trying to forgive.  I have to daily give it over to the Lord.  It really, really bugs me.  Why does someone do this? 

To me, it appears we have liars on every side.  The guy at work lied, the AMA lied, the governement lied, etc., etc.  on and on it goes...Don't they know...haven't they heard.  Jesus Christ is Lord.  He is coming back.  He will judge on that day.  I know we are not supposed to judge.  I know we are supposed to love, forgive, and all of that stuff.  But, I wonder again if love and forgive really mean what they said or if it might be something else. 

My son and I had a wonderful talk the other day about choosing to do right no matter what.  No matter how hard, no matter how lonely, no matter... ?  Whatever it is, you will always come out ahead if you choose to do right.  Why is it so hard to take off the masks of pretence?  Having to always appear a certain way to others as opposed to the truth.  I don't see it as being negative.  I see it that someone needs something.  As Christians, our duty is to minister to our brothers and sisters in the Lord.  So, dear Christian, why not share your struggles on your blog? After reading of an acquiantence who is facing a particular health challenge and stating they would not be detailing the struggle on their blog.   Be real.  Let others see you are not so perfect, that your life is not so easy, that all of us struggle.  I'm not saying focus on the negative.  I'm saying isn't it kind of a lie to say life is wonderful and happy when it's not.  And what is so bad about being honest and real as opposed to 'you can't talk about it' and 'life is wonderful all the time.'  Hmmmm, kind of reminds me of a song I used to listen to as a child...

"Their coming to take me away, ha, ha,
their coming to take me away, ho ho, hee, hee, ha, ha"....

Ummmm yea, when we can't really share what is on our hearts.  When we can't be honest.  Seriously, what is wrong with removing the mask and letting the imperfections be seen?  The one you thought was weak might be really strong and the one you thought was really strong, you'll find out how weak a person can be....

Facing the Bully

I have really been in a strange mood lately.  I don't know whether it is the weather or the time of year.  I don't know if it is because I am so far from my family or the circumstances that have played out in my life that make me feel like I do.  However, I am happy to say, "The Bully has not won!"  God is great.  He is mighty.  He has been showing me that I do not have to be panicked and running around in fear.  It is really quite a liberating experience. 

When you see someone or some thing attacking someone or something you love or care for very deeply, it  can be very fearful.  My usual response would be to run around and ask everyone to pray for such and such.  This time, my Lord, Jesus Christ, told me "Be still and know I am Lord."  This is not normal for me.  I usually find any and everyone to pray.  I call and ask; I do not sit still and do nothing.  However, this time I was led to do absolutely nothing.  Don't talk to anyone, don't call, be still and know that I am Lord and I will take care of you.  It was scary.  I was like, "Lord, don't you want me to call my sisters in the Lord?"  No, nothing.  Just calm assurance that "I will lead you out of this storm as I have led you out of other storms." 

My husband and I both have had bullies in our lives.  It has taken us a long time to learn to stand up to the bully.  We are still  learning.  It is a very liberating experience.  I have never felt as I do now....While I know I can do nothing in and of myself or by myself, I do know that I can do anything with Jesus Christ even face a storm of life alone with only Him or face a bully.  No matter how much I may feel alone, I now know truly - I am not alone nor am I ever alone as He says in His word, "I will never leave you or forsake you." 

If you are facing bullies in your life, I have two books for you aside from the Bible,  "Confronting the Jezebel Spirit, How to Defeat the Spirit of Control and Manipulation" by Steve Sampson and "Boundaries, How to Say No and Take Control of Your Life" by Drs. Townsend and Clark.  The Lord has brought such emotional healing in my life by the advice offered in these two books.  No one is paying me to sell this or say this.  I am offering what I have learned for free.  God lifts and promotes.  He sets up and appoints rulers.  He is in control.  He takes care of His people. 

My Most Valueble Piece of Jewelry....

I walked in to my bedroom this morning and was thinking about an upcoming trip and the need to pack.  Did I want to take any of my jewelry?  What would I leave behind? 

I have quite a few trinkets, baubles, and other pieces of jewelry; nothing of any real worth, but like everyone else valuable to me due to the memories attached.  After twenty-one years of marriage and the mother of two teenagers it dawned on me what I would answer to someone if they asked to see my most valuable piece.  Would you like to see it? 

It is not sparkly.  It doesn't quite catch the eyes of jewelry connosieurs.  But, it will catch a mother's heart.  Here is it....my most valueable piece of jewelry. 

I have wasted so many years wishing for other things when I really should have been valuing what is right before my very eyes.  I pray you learn from my mistakes.  When you hear people saying treasure what is right before you, please do so...you never know how much longer you might have that person or thing in your life.  

My daughter made this crochet'd necklace for me when she was eight or nine years old.  I really can't remember it has been so long ago.  But, I realized that my little girl is no longer a little girl.  I can't go back and get over my pride to wear something my daughter made especially for me.  I will tell you now though, it is my most valuable piece of jewelry in my collection.  I also realize that I did not always have a mother's heart.  I learned well the ways of the world that would steal a wife from home and her family.  I did not value my husband or family as I should.  May God forgive me and may my family forgive me.  As time passes, my children are almost grown and I will be returning to the world of work.  I hope that I will remember the lessons learned and hope that other mothers will be able to have the opportunity that I have had by being blessed to be a stay-at-home mother. 

2010, An Analogy Involving Weeds!

I looked out over my yard and was discouraged by the site that was before my eyes.  My son and I had worked very hard pulling weeds and it seemed we weren't getting very far in our battle against the invasion.  It was an overwhelming task.  Each day, it seemed there were still more plants to pull.  The lawnmower was broken and we had received  a letter from the county, "pull those weeds or we'll take care of it for you."  We all know what is involved in that process.  So as I was pulling weeds, I was complaining.  Kind of like the Israelites complaining to the Lord.  The Lord told me to put on a different pair of glasses and look at the weeds with a different set of eyes.  What???  Yep, put on new glasses and look at the situation with different eyes. 

I am such a negative person.  My first reaction always seems to be negative.  Whatever the situation, my response is usually negative.  They say part of dealing with a problem is recognizing it and confessing it.  So I am confessing, I am a negative person.  I know this about myself and I dislike this trait about myself.  I do hope one day it will be gone.  That I will have a new trait, a happy, overcoming view of life.  But back to my story....

As I went out to weed my garden box to weed,  my eyes fell on a beautiful bloom.  I had noticed my little flowers blooming, but somehow I had not taken in the joy of them.  I was so focused on the weeds that I was not seeing the flowers.  The Lord just kind of made the weeds diminish and the blooms seemed to be magnified.  The colors were so vibrant.  The plants and herbs that I wanted to see growing seemed to be larger than when I was looking at them before.  I had a new pair of glasses on and I was no longer seeing the weeds.  The Lord just kind of reminded me that I need to look at life the same way.  So the first gem is that my garden box was a present from my beloved children.  They had made it for me and gave it to me this year, 2010, for Mother's Day.  I feel so much love when I look out my window and see my garden box. 

Next, I was looking at the flowers and plants that had grown from seeds I planted in and around my garden box.  Again, I had to change my glasses.  This year everything seems so disorganized.  My gardening attempts are dictated by how much my back will tolerate bending over, digging, squatting, etc., etc.  All that goes with gardening.  Last year was a good year.  This year seemed so much more overwhelming and that nothing was like I wanted.  The Lord again reminded, "Look for the gems.  Quit looking at the problems, the weeds, the things you can't do and start focusing on what you can do.  The things I have done for you.  All will be all right and it is okay to be disorganized.  Enjoy what is here."  

I found this comforting as I really was kind of put out at the disorder, but yet I loved getting up each day and seeing what new bloom has come forth.  Looking at my garden box, I will be very blessed if I get any thing from it this year, but I enjoy looking at the gift my children gave me.  I did manage to weed it and I found I had four tomato plants, some carrots, a bean plant and possibly a corn plant growing in my garden box.  Hopefully the cold weather will hold off and they will have a chance to produce, but if not there is next year, Lord Willing!  

My Little Strawberry Patch...

 Although 2010 has been a very hard year for us, so , we are thanking God because he is very good to us.  He takes care of all our needs. 

Tomato Plant, I hope it makes it! 

A Gem Amongst the Weeds...

Post script to today's thoughts....

I wanted to once again re-iterate that I am not perfect.  I mess up all the time.  I have to ask for forgiveness because I am a sinner.  A sinner saved by grace  because of the blood of Jesus Christ.  The article I had read about scraping was not written from a Christian aspect.  I guess what shocked me most was that I ran into this issue first on what was claiming to be a Christian viewpoint.  So just in case you thought I was thumping you on the head with my Bible, well, I'm not....

Remember that song...???

"Oh the games people play now, every night and every day  now...la, la, la."  It's been years since I had thought about that song.  It seems there is a new scam to be aware of if you blog - Scraping.  I had read an article the other day and unfortunately, due to my menopause brain (or maybe it should be termed thyroid brain), I cannot remember where I read this article.  But I found it interesting in the fact that people would actually copy another writer's blog article and pass it off as their own work. 
Imagine my surprise when I actually ran into this behavior myself.  I had read a friend's blog and because I really admire her walk with the Lord and her witness, I decided to check out one of the blogs she reads.  The blog came up and it appeared so dazzling.  Latest bells and whistles, cute little pictures and so eye-appealing...So I proceed to read the blog... Hmmmmm....this seems very familiar, wait a minute, I just read this, THIS MORNING!  IN MY EMAIL!   BY ANOTHER PERSON....authored by that person and nowhere on the blog did this person mention that person.  I went back and double checked to be sure.  This one person took this other person's article and posted it on their own blog with no link, authorship or credit given to the orginal writer.  How much more could you be trying to pass off their work as your own???


Okay, back to the article, and I really wish I could remember where I read about scraping.  The guy was upset and I don't blame him.  He had put a lot of time into his article, you know, research, verifying facts, just to have someone come along and steal his article and pass it off as their own work.  No mention or link to direct people to his site, just stole his work.  Then, they act as if they have done nothing wrong and "Hey, man!  What's your problem?  Why are you so upset?"  Pleeezzeee....You can't tell me they wouldn't be just as upset if somebody had stolen their article. 
Now, now, remember, you are supposed to share and really, what does it matter? 

Why does it matter?  Because it is stealing.  We are supposed to be Christians.  Christians are not supposed to steal, lie, kill, etc., etc.  You know, the Ten Commandments. 

Hoo Boy, so how do I tell my friend that this blog she found...the person is scraping.  It just seems, that in my life, I go from the frying pan to the fire, because I try to live as a Christian should...You know honesty, integrity, do good not evil....  So check your sources before you attribute an article to one person especially if they don't include 'written by'  because it just might be written by someone else and they're trying to appear as if they are sooooo intellectual and talented and gifted..."oh the games people play now...every night and every day now, never saying what they mean now, nah, na, nah, nan ,na, nah...."

So for the lack of that person's integrity...the article was written by David Wilkerson and it was from his blog which you can sign up for to receive a copy in your email like I get in mine.  and here is DAVID WILKERSON'S article...

David Wilkerson Today

THURSDAY, JULY 15, 2010

GROWTH IN GRACE CAN BE STUNTED!

Paul warned the Ephesians, "Be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine" (Ephesians 4:14). You may think, "This verse doesn't apply to me. My foundation is biblically solid. I'm not taken in by all the new gospel fads and frivolous gimmicks that are distracting people from Christ. I'm rooted and grounded in God's Word."

Yet listen to the rest of Paul's verse: "…carried about…by the sleight of
men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive" (4:14).
Perhaps you can't be fazed by false doctrine. Paul says you could still be
carried away by a whole other matter. He's asking, "Are you tossed about by the evil plans of those who oppose you?"

Paul's message calls us to examine ourselves yet again: How do we react to
people who call themselves our brothers and sisters in Christ, yet spread
falsehoods about us?

When Paul commands, "Be no more children," he's telling us, "Those enemies of yours—the ones who use gossip and slander, fraud and manipulation, cunning and craftiness, deception and underhandedness—I tell you, they're all rebellious children. They're devious and spoiled. And they haven't allowed God's grace to do a work in them. So, don't fall for their wicked, childish games. They want you to react to their meanness as a child would. But you are not to answer them with childishness."

In the next verse, Paul urges us to move on to maturity: "Speaking the truth in love, may [you] grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ" (Ephesians 4:15). He's saying, "You can't help the slights you receive, the hurts done to you, the gossip spoken against you, the fraud and deception aimed at you. Yet, you can use these things to grow in grace. View them as opportunities to become more Christlike. Respond softly, with a meek spirit. Forgive those who spitefully use you."

What do you say....

What do you say to someone who is discouraged?  How do you help them find their way - Especially when you know this person has been giving it their all to follow the Lord.  We all know the story of Job and how God allowed the enemy to test Job.  But when it all becomes words and more words and you really don't have anything new to say or just do not know what to say...As much as I have tried to instill in my children that God is soverign and can do whatever He wants, sometimes, it just seems that God is not fair; that He does allow more than what we can tolerate.  It becomes really hard when this person is your husband and best friend in life.  When you have gone through all the troubles and trials with them and you have no answers, what's left? 

Well, well??? 

I don't know.  All I can say is COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS!  Start calling to mind all the impossible  moments of your life and remember what the Lord, Your God, has done for you.  If the whole world deserts you, the Lord will still be there.  He is still the one who makes the sun shine and hangs the moon in the sky. 

I love God's wonderful creations. 
They remind me of His awesome
ways and that He cares when it
appears no one else does. 
This picture, of one of our cats,
reminds me God really does care. 
How lonely and cold 'lil kitty' appears.  Yet, we see God sending warmth by the sun shining through on a bitter, cold day.  How much God cares for us to meet all of our needs.   

I have to remind myself we really are in a battle.  We have an enemy who does not want to see us succeed at anything.  He wants to steal our joy and take away our peace.  As so many prophecies have said, God is shaking.  Yes, I believe there is a shaking going on today and that it is going to become worse as God allows the enemy to test us as He allowed him to test Job. 

I look at our trials and thank God because despite our trials and troubles, they are not what some of my friends are going through and have gone through lately.  In the dark times, there have been overcoming victories.  Life was not exstinquished.  Good won over evil.  In what most would term a loss, they knew the Lord and their lives continue to give glory to God although they are no longer here with us. 

So, I'm praying for all my friends who have been having their own worlds' shaken.  I hope they will pray for us and Lord, could you please encourage my hubby today...Call to rememberance those moments in his life when life seemed hopeless and help him remember what great and awesome things our Lord, Jesus Christ, has done for him! 

The Case for Truth...

My husband has two quotes that he says to me all the time. The first goes, "Remember, history is written by the Victors." The second quote says, " History is not necessarily truth." As a Christian, I never thought I would be found to say that the founding fathers of our country were not Christians. I can state that I do believe The Holy Bible is true. To find that some, not all, of the founding fathers were not Christian was a shock. You see, I had forgotten a very important lesson which God had taught me some time ago. Never trust the man, search it out for yourself. Read it with your own eyes before making judgement.

I have just finished reading the book by Tom Horn "Apollyon Rising 2012" . I do not and cannot say that he has it totally all right, but I would have to say that he pretty much ties up a lot of the loose bunny trails my husband and I have been trying to find answers to for quite some time. My husband prayed, when we made a major move, for God to show him the truth. We were both tired of the 'games' that so many Christians, and not just Christians, but people like to play. After a short while, I was beginning to seriously doubt my husband. I told him I thought it was very unfair for him to pray for God to show him the truth because that meant I had to face truth and I, quite honestly, didn't know if I was ready for the truth. Hold on, Baby! The ride's gonna get rough. God has taken so far from where we were in our walks as Christians. Basically, it was throw out everything you thought was foundational and start over based totally on The Bible. Funny how it always comes back to HIS WORD....It always was His Word and never did He mean for men to twist it so for their uses.

So back to the founding fathers...did they really say what we were told they said...Before you adamantly swear that they did, you might want to go search it out for yourself. Don't trust the preacher-man in the pulpit or the politician at the podium. If there is one thing the internet is great for, it is research. They have the original documents on line. You can read for yourself who said what. If you are brave, you can find where people have done the hard work for you...but again, take my warning..."Don't take my word for it, don't take your neighbor's word for it, your husband, wife, etc., etc. Go find out for yourself." I can guarantee you that you will come away with more insight and knowledge and maybe a better person for finding out for yourself who said what...

A Supernatural God....

Without a doubt, I alway let my mouth get me into situations then I feel the need to come back and try to explain one more time....

I decided to post some of the 'experiences' I shared and some people, no matter what, will just not be able to accept that this is of Jesus Christ because it is not in their 'doctrine'. Yes, I am in a battle. A spiritual battle that says 'Wake Up! The things of God are not the things of men.' I started believing in man's word more than God's word. There is a real problem in that because the basic truth is that God's Word, The Holy Bible, is truth, not man's. I have repented and now, once again, find myself alone and forsaken or so that is what the enemy is trying to get me to believe....When the rubber meets the road, where do you go? Do you run to your friend's side or do you head out the door because the situation just doesn't equal up with your man-made doctrine? I am consciously choosing to believe the Bible over what man says.

If any were to be reading this and really knowing what is going in my life, they would know that I am in a battle for my healing. The Bible says that 'we were healed' by His stripes. Whose stripes? Jesus Christ's stripes. It is not in the future tense, it is not in the present tense, and it most certainly does not say 'Lord, IF it be thy will...'. Every single day since I decided to ditch the naturopathic doctor's advice for a diet for me to follow, I have been confronted with "Are you really going to believe God's Word today?" Sure you're healed, Mist. You're hobbling around here in soooo much pain, and the rashes, and the irritability and moodswings, and the dizziness, and the nausea, and the feelings of paranoia which are extremely hard to handle when you 'feel like' you are all alone; especially when I know, if I eat this way, all these symptoms would go away for the most part until other symptoms start showing up because now I am deficient in another area. And once again, I am in bondage. You can eat this, you can't eat that; do this, don't do that and the simple task of cooking dinner becomes a greater chore because my husband is not going to eat it, my daughter can't eat it as she has her restrictions (food intolerances), and basically here I am locked and tied up into bondage because of man's edict. So as Job would say, "Yet though he slay me..." If the Lord chooses to slay me then that is His right as Supreme Omnipotent, All Powerful and All Knowing God. But, I am choosing to believe His Word that says "His Word is truth. He desires us to prosper and be in good health, that by His stripes we WERE healed." Hear what I am saying... It does not give me the right to chunk out and eat whatever I want....I believe there is a sound nutritional plan, but I am having a really, really hard time with my doctor, of the race mankind, telling me I can't have this and this and this.....On the other hand, God's Word tells me you have liberty, do not call anything I have made unclean, do not forbid...

You see, in the past, I used to attend a very strong in Word of Faith Church. I have seen God do supernatural things. I did not always understand but without a doubt it was God and He got the glory, not man. Since that time, in various times of my life, God has done supernatural things for me and my husband. Like the time we were going down the road and there was a deer right in front of us. There was a very thick fog and my husband had seen the deer crossing in front of the vehicle we were meeting. I was concentrating on seeing the road. It was very foggy; the lights of the other car were blinding, and I was focusing on keeping our car in our lane and trying to see in the fog right in front of us that I did not see the deer until right when it cross from the other lane to right in front of us. I did not have any time to react other than take my foot off the accelerator. In my mind's eye, right at that very moment, I saw God's hand come down and scoop that deer's rear end right out the path of our car. My husband was saying, "There's got to be deer fur hanging from the front of the car! We didn't hit it! We didn't hit it!" I told him what I saw...it was like when we as parents are watching our little toddlers maneuver new situations with walking and they walk in front of something, a cart, wagon, swing and we race and scoop them up to get them out of harm's way...it was the same way with the deer. I saw God's hand come down and scoop the deer's rear end up and out of the way.....This happened just a few months ago. There have been many other instances where God supernaturally intervened and provided an answer. There also have been times when I did not pay attention to that little voice speaking and regretted it.

I don't want to be casting my pearls before swine. So initially I said experiences, but I am only sharing this one for now.... I am asking for anyone who might be reading this to join with me in asking for a healing. I need a healing in my physical body. Would you take a stand with me today by believing God's Word over man's word? Likening the story of Joshua and Caleb coming back to say "we can take the promise land" only to be outshouted by those that would say, "The inhabitants are too big, we can't do it." God help me to stand on Your Word, Your Principles, Your doctrine. Help me not to hear the voice of the enemy today.

What's A Christian To Do???

I have debated within myself whether to blog or not...so while I am still debating this issue, I decided some things that have happened to me are worth posting especially in light of the news now days.

My husband and I found ourselves invited to a gathering a couple of months ago. We were to have a meal and a movie afterwards. Sounds harmless enough right...except the movie was to be a scary movie. As a Christian I really do not think it is a good idea to watch 'scary' movies. I sincerely believe you open supernatural doors when you engage in such behavior. The Bible speaks of taking every thought captive and those things you think on, you have as much done....And also, Christ himself was most of the time found among those who needed him, not the religious leaders of that day. So I felt to go and be at this gathering is totally what Christ would have done.

Anyhow back to the topic at hand, the scary movie and what is a Christian to do? We were invited, we felt we should go, now do we not go because of the scary movie. After all, Christians are supposed to have dominion and authority over ALL things. We decided to attend the event. As I was sitting next to my hubby having a feverent discussion with Jesus over the movie, I was happy to find out that it was based on a 'true story'. It was a movie I had seen previews to but knew that I would not personally go out and buy it to watch. This movie is supposedly based on a true story. I really enjoy 'true movie' contents. Now realize I am not talking doctrine here. I am talking about finding yourself in circumstances over which you really have no say in what happens or doesn't happen and finding the truth that God means for you to find in that circumstance.

Okay, sorry for the rambling, as I was having this debate with the Lord, actually I was praying the blood of Jesus over us because I knew that the movie would either be: A) About satanism, B) about witchcraft or wiccan/pagan, or C) demonic (see A or B) in content. It was getting pretty intense in the movie about this time, and I'm asking the Lord ; "Okay Jesus, what do I do? " As in do I get up and walk out, risk offending the people there, start rebuking the spirits and totally throw the guests in a state of disorder, or sit there and take authority. Right as I am asking the Lord and praying for his protection, a lead character in the movie turned straight on, front face shot, close in to the camera and it was as if he was speaking directly to me. Well, the character wasn't but I believe the Lord was....He said, "Fear NO evil!" It was very stern. It was a real reminder to me of exactly the position we have in Christ Jesus. His Word tells us we have ALL authority and power. I believe we are not to go looking for these situations, but when we find ourselves in them, we are to take authority. God has given us the victory. Fear No Evil!