It Happened Again!!!

Wow, time has flown. It is amazing to see how you think it has only been a few days and then it turns to weeks. Kind of like the time I thought I had called my Mom, and found out it was almost a month ago. ACCCKKK!!!!

Yes folks, I had another one of those wonderful bathroom moments. This time, I happened to be in the shower. I thoroughly enjoy my showers. I push the limit on staying in there. It is shameful, because I do know that it is important to conserve water and all of that stuff. But this time, it didn't take me long to get out of the shower. I was enjoying the flow of the water running through my hair, and just basically the warmth of the water. Did I mention that I really love my showers? So any how, I had just finished washing my hair and rinsing it. It is quite a task as I have really thick hair, so I must rinse it alot to make sure all the suds are out of it, conditioner, etc. I turned and something caught my eye on the floor of the shower. The water is running. Life is happy and then I realize...

There is a Black Widow spider scrambling for its life on the floor of my shower, with me, while I am taking my shower. AAAAGGGHHHHHAAAAGGGHHHHAAAGGGHHH!!!!!! Okay, so what do I do? Do I just forego the shower? Um, no, I needed my shower. Nothing is going to deprive me of my shower. I rapidly decide to finish the job in extra quick time all the while keeping an eye on my enemy, ummm, excuse me, friend who is still trying to hang onto life in this world. Did I happen to mention that I have a bad back? Yep, every now and then I move the right way, or is that the wrong way, and out it goes. The last time all I did was sit down in a chair. Ask my children, they'll tell you. That little episode put me in bed for two days and three heavy pain pills later. Oh, sorry, that's another story in itself. Okay, so back to the spider...I proceed to check my towel for another one, just in case there is a partner in crime. I step out of the shower, all the while twisting and kinking to keep my eyes on this spider which is still scrambling around. After I am dressed, I find that - Gee, my back is aching. Wonder why? I am sad to say that the spider did not make it; okay, I am not really sorry. I don't much care for spiders. Not after I was bit by one and had a lump the size of a half-dollar.

Which reminds me that I did have another bathroom moment and there was a spider on my towel. It reminded me why I should never move to Arizona, New Mexico or one of those states that has critters like scorpions running around. I would be bitten for sure....

Life has somewhat returned to normal here. I am happy to say my children are behaving like my children again. A few months ago, as a neighbor of mine would say, "Aliens have kidnapped my child." I could totally relate. Aliens had kidnapped my children because they sure weren't behaving like my children. After a few revisions, explaining that life is not going to continue in this way, things are going well lately. My daughter had this idea of doing school her way. I told her I had no logical reason why she could not do as she had planned except that I didn't know of anyone else who had done such. Well, the first goal planned went well. She was happy. I was convinced she was ruining her life. Be quiet, be patient. The Lord spoke to me, my husband reassured me. It will be all right. Um yea, right...she is ruining her chance at choice later on, this is not good. Be patient, be quiet. Well, the next planned goal came. The very first day all did not go as planned. She came out very humble and quiet and said, "Mom, would you pleeeezzzeee help me?" You know I could have really gotten nasty with her, but I didn't. I quietly explained that all I ever wanted for her was the best; that I would be more than happy to help her. But in helping her, she had to listen to me. That I really wasn't out to run her life. I want her to be independent. To be the person God has called her to be, and to not throw those gifts away.

So to make this all short, I have learned in this season of experimenting that truly God does lead us concerning our 'own' family, not others' families. What works for you did not work for me. We tried it the way others do school, we were lost and confused. We are now back to our plan and schedule and life is at peace. We're all happy. I am sorry for the wasted times where I doubted what God had told me, questioned my own ability only to lose ground and we are just getting back to where we were before we took this detour. May you have the strength to walk the path God has called you and your family to travel.