I have really been in a strange mood lately. I don't know whether it is the weather or the time of year. I don't know if it is because I am so far from my family or the circumstances that have played out in my life that make me feel like I do. However, I am happy to say, "The Bully has not won!" God is great. He is mighty. He has been showing me that I do not have to be panicked and running around in fear. It is really quite a liberating experience.
When you see someone or some thing attacking someone or something you love or care for very deeply, it can be very fearful. My usual response would be to run around and ask everyone to pray for such and such. This time, my Lord, Jesus Christ, told me "Be still and know I am Lord." This is not normal for me. I usually find any and everyone to pray. I call and ask; I do not sit still and do nothing. However, this time I was led to do absolutely nothing. Don't talk to anyone, don't call, be still and know that I am Lord and I will take care of you. It was scary. I was like, "Lord, don't you want me to call my sisters in the Lord?" No, nothing. Just calm assurance that "I will lead you out of this storm as I have led you out of other storms."
My husband and I both have had bullies in our lives. It has taken us a long time to learn to stand up to the bully. We are still learning. It is a very liberating experience. I have never felt as I do now....While I know I can do nothing in and of myself or by myself, I do know that I can do anything with Jesus Christ even face a storm of life alone with only Him or face a bully. No matter how much I may feel alone, I now know truly - I am not alone nor am I ever alone as He says in His word, "I will never leave you or forsake you."
If you are facing bullies in your life, I have two books for you aside from the Bible, "Confronting the Jezebel Spirit, How to Defeat the Spirit of Control and Manipulation" by Steve Sampson and "Boundaries, How to Say No and Take Control of Your Life" by Drs. Townsend and Clark. The Lord has brought such emotional healing in my life by the advice offered in these two books. No one is paying me to sell this or say this. I am offering what I have learned for free. God lifts and promotes. He sets up and appoints rulers. He is in control. He takes care of His people.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
More on the Thyroid....
I truly believe God directs all of our steps. The ways of a righteous man or woman's steps will be ordered by the Lord, He says so in His word.
I find it very interesting that at various times in my life, God has answered my prayers and the circumstances are so specific that I know it was Him. I was searching and reading, searching and reading, tired of all the researching and reading. Circles upon circles of information; feeling like a black hole that was continually enlarging and I was being sucked down into the vortex of this black hole with no escape. I was saying to my self, "Self, I don't like what I see." I see this group (thyroid issue people) talking about splitting dosages and taking supplements and doing this and doing that - all to compensate for dosing their thyroid gland to try and avoid problems that come up with their medications and their medical condition, whether hypo or hyperthyroid. I then am reading on the MSG board and see where people have done this or that...and then, I heard the Lord say to me, "B12." I'm like, "what???"
I finished round #2 of my thyroid medication two weeks and one day ago. It was quite an interesting experience. First off, I did have the 'return with a vengence syndrome' that the thyroid people said would happen. Next, I didn't quite calulate right and had to drop my dosage down faster than what I would like due to not having enough medication to get through and when I called in for my refill....well, I miscalculated. Due to family emergencies and trips out of town, having to ship in your medication from a completely different state than where you live; not to mention a state that is all the way across the United States from where you live and then running out of medication for one whole day before the package would get here, so I had to again drop the dose quickly to at least have some in my system......so after getting really upset with myself for doing something so stupid as that and just the general frustration and then reading and trying to understand what and how the thyroid people were having to track their dosage...I was just tired of it all. During the second round I had another blood panel drawn. The doc has been very helpful. In fact, all of them have been very helpful, the thyroid board people, the MSG people but no one like the Lord.
So, I was sitting at home still waiting for the results of the lab tests which were to show what was deficient along with the thyroid issues. While waiting, I had been reading (see above)...But two very interesting points or connections that I made while waiting for my results were the facts: 1. MSG is an endocrine disruptor. 2. MSG can cause cascading effects. Hmmm, thyroid - endocrine...hmmmmm cascading effect - leaky gut symptoms. So I am combing the MSG board for similar issues. Then I go to the thyroid board and get thoroughly upset at the prospect of having to split doses and manage this and manage that....seriously, I don't know how these people do it all along with working, living and life.
So I sit here telling myself and by this time talking with the Lord, "Lord, I don't want to have to live this way." I heard "B12". Huh? "B12" ..."okaaaayyyy" Yea, it can't be that simple right? That's what so neat about God, it was that simple. The very same day...in fact, about 30 minutes later I received the lab results and guess what...Yep, the B12 level was low. I had also happened across an article where people where receiving healing from supplementing B12. We're talking about serious healings of multiple sclerosis and Parkinson's Disease....and some other heavy hitters along with thyroid disorders. They also explained how it had to be a certain form of B12 as not everyone can convert the usual B12...again I figured I fit in to that group considering that I had already had issues with leaky gut type symptoms.
So, I'm taking the B12 in the absorbable form, trying my best to stay away from MSG in any way, shape or form (dreading the Holidays for food issues), and generally overall, I'm doing much better. I have a better, over-all feeling of well-being instead of the something seriously is wrong with me syndrome. I am learning to trust in the Lord with my whole heart and lean not unto my own understanding in so many areas in my life. I know that sounds like pat, little cliches, but truly, He is showing me that he has numbered the hairs on my head and he knows me and cares about all of my issues, not just some. He has answered and is answering our prayers as a family. I don't know why I have to be reminded of who He is and what He has done. I know this. He has never ever let us down or let us go without. But once again, it is written and recorded. God has answered my prayer.
I know these are scary times we are living in...every day we read more and more that leads us to "look up for our redemption draweth nigh." I really believe He is teaching us to stand and not to be fearful. Why should we be fearful when the God who created all things and can do all things, knows all things, and overcame all things is telling us He loves us and care about us. The only thing we really need to fear is Him.
I find it very interesting that at various times in my life, God has answered my prayers and the circumstances are so specific that I know it was Him. I was searching and reading, searching and reading, tired of all the researching and reading. Circles upon circles of information; feeling like a black hole that was continually enlarging and I was being sucked down into the vortex of this black hole with no escape. I was saying to my self, "Self, I don't like what I see." I see this group (thyroid issue people) talking about splitting dosages and taking supplements and doing this and doing that - all to compensate for dosing their thyroid gland to try and avoid problems that come up with their medications and their medical condition, whether hypo or hyperthyroid. I then am reading on the MSG board and see where people have done this or that...and then, I heard the Lord say to me, "B12." I'm like, "what???"
I finished round #2 of my thyroid medication two weeks and one day ago. It was quite an interesting experience. First off, I did have the 'return with a vengence syndrome' that the thyroid people said would happen. Next, I didn't quite calulate right and had to drop my dosage down faster than what I would like due to not having enough medication to get through and when I called in for my refill....well, I miscalculated. Due to family emergencies and trips out of town, having to ship in your medication from a completely different state than where you live; not to mention a state that is all the way across the United States from where you live and then running out of medication for one whole day before the package would get here, so I had to again drop the dose quickly to at least have some in my system......so after getting really upset with myself for doing something so stupid as that and just the general frustration and then reading and trying to understand what and how the thyroid people were having to track their dosage...I was just tired of it all. During the second round I had another blood panel drawn. The doc has been very helpful. In fact, all of them have been very helpful, the thyroid board people, the MSG people but no one like the Lord.
So, I was sitting at home still waiting for the results of the lab tests which were to show what was deficient along with the thyroid issues. While waiting, I had been reading (see above)...But two very interesting points or connections that I made while waiting for my results were the facts: 1. MSG is an endocrine disruptor. 2. MSG can cause cascading effects. Hmmm, thyroid - endocrine...hmmmmm cascading effect - leaky gut symptoms. So I am combing the MSG board for similar issues. Then I go to the thyroid board and get thoroughly upset at the prospect of having to split doses and manage this and manage that....seriously, I don't know how these people do it all along with working, living and life.
So I sit here telling myself and by this time talking with the Lord, "Lord, I don't want to have to live this way." I heard "B12". Huh? "B12" ..."okaaaayyyy" Yea, it can't be that simple right? That's what so neat about God, it was that simple. The very same day...in fact, about 30 minutes later I received the lab results and guess what...Yep, the B12 level was low. I had also happened across an article where people where receiving healing from supplementing B12. We're talking about serious healings of multiple sclerosis and Parkinson's Disease....and some other heavy hitters along with thyroid disorders. They also explained how it had to be a certain form of B12 as not everyone can convert the usual B12...again I figured I fit in to that group considering that I had already had issues with leaky gut type symptoms.
So, I'm taking the B12 in the absorbable form, trying my best to stay away from MSG in any way, shape or form (dreading the Holidays for food issues), and generally overall, I'm doing much better. I have a better, over-all feeling of well-being instead of the something seriously is wrong with me syndrome. I am learning to trust in the Lord with my whole heart and lean not unto my own understanding in so many areas in my life. I know that sounds like pat, little cliches, but truly, He is showing me that he has numbered the hairs on my head and he knows me and cares about all of my issues, not just some. He has answered and is answering our prayers as a family. I don't know why I have to be reminded of who He is and what He has done. I know this. He has never ever let us down or let us go without. But once again, it is written and recorded. God has answered my prayer.
I know these are scary times we are living in...every day we read more and more that leads us to "look up for our redemption draweth nigh." I really believe He is teaching us to stand and not to be fearful. Why should we be fearful when the God who created all things and can do all things, knows all things, and overcame all things is telling us He loves us and care about us. The only thing we really need to fear is Him.
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